I want to quit

I want to quit, I can't hassle anymore, it's been an year I have started this, I am working day and night, haven't made a single penny, it's getting harder..

I want to quit, it's too much to balance between work,home and kid, I don't get a minute for me, I feel tired..

I want to quit, these bags feel heavy on my back, wondering around, waiting for perfect captures, sleeping in forest, in deserts, in tents. I long for home..

I want to quit, I haven't been able to think single  scene, I think I don't fit in, there are better movie makers than me, I feel lost..

I want to quit, I can't lift weights again, I can't run single mile more, I cant handle anymore bruise on my face, I don't want that medal too.. 

I want to quit..

I failed one more exam, I lost one more game, my new recipe still taste disaster, my one more blog post went unread, i missed my son's PT meeting once again, my hands still shakes in OT today,  my start up yet not funded, I still cry in efforts..

But, I won't quit

Cz,

All the little things I long

All the pretty things I crave 

Of all the images I behold

My struggle is the most beautiful.. 

I won't quit..